Baby boy’s first haircut

At just over eleven months, Zechariah’s beautiful curly hair was starting to annoy him behind the ears. Although Albert and I don’t want to lose those lovely curls, we do want him to be more comfortable, so a decision was reached rather quickly earlier today to trim up the sides, leaving a generous amount of baby curls up top in a fade style similar to Daddy’s. (daddy is growing the top of his hair out a little bit: enough to get short locs)

We jumped on the piki piki (motorcycle) and headed to the local market to the best local hairstylist we know. (out here they call barbers kinyozi and hair salons saloons)

Albert sat in the barber’s chair and held Zechariah and our little guy didn’t cry even once! He did such a great job.

In other news, Zechariah’s top central incisors are starting to cut through today. He is surprisingly playful and happy despite the pain. This may have to do with the fact that he recovered from Malaria and an upper respiratory tract infection this last week and the teeth are a walk in the park compared to all that.


New Phone New Opportunities

Here I am in Bungoma, Kenya two years after my initial arrival. This is my first blog entry since then as I have just received a sponsorship for a new phone (hallelujah!) and I am now able to access the internet with a bit more ease.

Internet access here in the village where I now live and work on the missions field is spotty to say the least. Cities have much better access to modern conveniences, but I was not called to the city and I am grateful for every bit of technology that I am allowed.

Here, I live a simple life. It is almost like camping but in a tiny mud house (about 250sq ft or so but more about that another time). Most cooking is done over a fire or charcoal, though I do have a single burner gas cooker. Everything everything everything is from scratch. This is part of the reason I have lost so much weight in the last couple of years (about 80lbs… More when I am not pregnant.)

About that, here is another update… I am married now and have one beautiful son and a daughter due precisely this Christmas day!!! Talk about unexpected changes from two years ago. I have many stories to tell, and many updates to give you all and now that I can access my blog page, I finally will! (pictures of all wonderful things will be posted but new phone, no pics yet)

Here is some delicious Kenya food and my handsome husband… (so although I can write with ease, pictures are not currently allowing me to load them. I will figure this out and get them working shortly…)


blossomsWe are called to Love

In Isaiah 58, the prophet is speaking to the “religious:” specifically for their adherence to the practices which they deemed made them “righteous,” (fasting, crying out, wearing the right “religious” clothes and garments, praying “correctly”)  while ignoring the fullness of living a lifestyle that glorified God and embodied what God taught the people to do.

These are the same types of individuals being addressed in Isaiah 29:13, which Jesus used to address the pharisees by quoting it in Matthew 15:8, which says, ‘These people draw near to Me with their mouth,
And[a] honor Me with their lips,
But their heart is far from Me.”

Love is always and has always central to the God’s message: in the laws of Abraham and the Jewish people from which Christianity grew; and in the gospel message of the Cross of Christ; and in the opening up blessings and religious acceptance to the Gentiles (those who are not Jews, who only have an inheritance of God due to the sacrifice of the cross).

These following words can also be great wisdom and encouragement to every Christian as this is what God told those who were living only by the law without focusing on its greater purpose. If one reads through Jewish law, it truly is based in love: fair treatment of neighbors, issues of how to stay healthy and live long, respecting each other, and the like. Just like the fullness of the Bible today, we must not only focus on the surface teaching, but allow the Spirit of God to show us its great depth that we may walk in the ways of Jesus every day.

Is this not the fast that I have chosen:
To loose the bonds of wickedness,
To undo the heavy burdens,
To let the oppressed go free,
And that you break every yoke?
 Is it not to share your bread with the hungry,
And that you bring to your house the poor who are cast out;
When you see the naked, that you cover him,
And not hide yourself from your own flesh?
Then your light shall break forth like the morning,
Your healing shall spring forth speedily,
And your righteousness shall go before you;
The glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard.
 Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer;
You shall cry, and He will say, ‘Here I am.’”

-Isaiah 58:6-9

He has called us higher

Renewing Our Minds to Kingdom Thinking

“One Compromise here, another there, and soon enough the so-called Christian and the man in the world look the same.” -A.W. Tozer
 “I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.” Romans 12:1-2 NKJV

Yesterday, I wrote about refinement. I shared with you how the beginning of this year has been quite a struggle for me. I have been fighting every day through things in my heart that God has been addressing before I move in to ministry. That afternoon, God took me and my ministry partners in to united prayer against the spiritual forces I was fighting (I am so blessed to have mentors and ministry partners who are willing to fight alongside with me). During the course of prayer, God gave us answers as to the roots of what I have been dealing with so that I could deal with forgiveness and dealing with the initial reactions years ago that had been incorrect. The garden of my heart was weeded and I knew God had dealt with all of the issues when he spoke a new word continuously in to my spirit; “Renew”

“Renew,” my heart heard over and over as The Lord God Almighty spoke peace in to my soul and the Holy Spirit Wind blew in to by Spirit. How good and mighty and loving our God is!!! Jesus be praised! He never ceases to love us. He never ceases to prove himself faithful.


By renewal, the Christian is transformed. The Holy Spirit and Word of God transform our mind to think in Kingdom terms, through Kingdom rules, and this is extremely important. We must not think as the world thinks or act as the world acts. We have been bought with a price, and must now stand apart and allow God to be glorified and magnified in our lives.

I have been watching a lot of old clips from the yearly Jesus Conference here in the USA recently. Today, as I began to write, I was listening to the honorable evangelist Reinhard Bonnke. Bonnke has a powerful ministry and has learned to allow himself to be the hands and feet of Christ. He spoke of the importance of Kingdom perspective and choosing to live this way. “Every human being was created for the gospel.” Reinhard Bonnke Jesus Conference 2014 where he also said,

“The gospel is the logic of God. It was not and could not be invented intellectually, It does not fit the secular mind pattern. It is more profound than the details of the genes in Adam, which God also created. We must move in the divine dimension where the devil is lost. If we live in the human dimension, then the devil is always one step ahead of us.” (emphasis added)

Furthermore, the Word of God directs us, in Galatians,

I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish.” Galatians 5:16-17 NKJV

How do we get a kingdom perspective?


God has given us everything that we need in the Bible. The Bible is the Word of God. It is God breathed, profitable for doctrine and instruction in righteousness “That the man of God might be complete: fully equipped for EVERY good work.” 2 Timothy 3:17

God does not say PARTIALLY equipped for SOME good works.

God does not say PARTIALLY equipped for EVERY good work

God does not say FULLY equipped for SOME good works.

God says the Bible FULLY EQUIPS US for EVERY GOOD WORK!!!


The Bible is not just a historical book or a book of stories. It has many layers. It does tell historical stories, it demonstrates what it is to have good and bad character, it tells the story of God become flesh to dwell among us. It also teaches about Christ throughout the ENTIRE Bible! Jesus can be found in every book of the Bible, not just the four books that make up the “gospel:” Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. The Bible gives prophesies, The Bible gives promises: promises that are as good and true for God’s people today as they were for the people of Israel (Abraham’s vine that Paul says we are grafted in to through Christ and should still respect according to Paul in Romans 11:11-31) and we should pray them and claim them over our lives.


Many people hear the phrase “claim it over your life” and they feel uneasy. There are many people who preach a prosperity gospel that is similar to the truth but is false doctrine. We can claim scriptures over our lives but we must make sure that we are being Biblically accurate in our use of these promises. We should never use the Bible or Christianity to benefit us, but in humility take the word for what it means and use scriptural in an accurate way. Their is POWER in the WORD OF GOD and Satan wants to discredit this power through the use of people who use it incorrectly. Do not lay down the promises and the authority that we have THROUGH CHRIST. At the same time, do not be self serving, but seek what the Lord’s will is: His good, pleasing, and perfect will: his will he gave us through the scripture.

How is a man able to know the will of God? We read it in HIS word. We also have the Holy Spirit inside of us interpreting scripture to our hearts and speaking to our spirits.

Part of the reason we must allow ourselves to be renewed is that, by doing so, we take away other voices that can interfere with the voice of the Holy Spirit in our lives. We allow the noise of this world to shout louder than the voice of the Spirit. God is always talking to us, but the more we fill our minds with, the less we can hear Him.


Think of it this way, have you ever missed a call because you could not hear it, even though it was turned all the way up? There may have been distractions: music, the noise of food cooking, movies playing, kids running around. Whatever it was, the phone was still ringing, but it was not heard. The sound was not perceived because there were other sounds crowding out the sound of the phone.

When we allow our lives to be filled with all kinds of business and ‘noise’ spiritually, we hear less and less spiritually. I will leave it here and expound on this in my next post as there is so much more to say on this and I don’t want to take up too much of your time, but I do believe that you get the gist of what is being said.

We must not allow ourselves to be double minded. We must not allow ourselves to serve both God and man: both God and ourselves. We must surrender ALL at the foot of the cross so that we may be used in fullness: holding nothing back, and having FULL trust that the work God began in us is able to be completed. We must trust that God and His desires for us are truly the thing that will satisfy us most because, “Every human being was created for the gospel.” Reinhard Bonnke Jesus Conference 2014.

He has called us to greater things: all of us, not just a chosen few.


Called Me Higher- All Sons and Daughters


As the Old Man Dies

Allowing the Flame of the Holy Spirit to Burn Inside

Then there appeared to them divided tongues, as of fire, and one sat upon each of them.” Acts 2:3  (NKJV)

As many of you know, I am soon to be on my way to Africa for missions: Kenya will be my base, to be exact.


I will be conducting leadership training, church development of many ministries, Women’s ministry, curriculum development, and charity work. I also hope to be able to establish a widows and orphans fund in order to fund education for children that cannot afford it as well as macro-loans to develop small businesses for women supporting their families.


As I move further further and further in to my calling I have been surprised by something I never expected to deal with when moving in to ministry. I have noticed that, out of what seems like nowhere, I am being bombarded with a slew of old attitudes and struggles that I thought were long behind me. The worst part of it to me is that I often feel like I have to battle these most strongly directly after digging in to the Lord. It has had me struggling and wondering as to the state of my own soul.

I have found myself in moments looking directly in to my heart and asking, “Why am I having this thought or feeling?! I am no longer a teenager. I have not felt this or allowed myself to think this way since I was 15, 16, etc.”  It has had me in such bewilderment and caused such an urgency in my spirit to find answers that I have really been searching and digging in for answers with the Spirit of God.

Though I have had my understanding expanded on the matter here and there, I was not satisfied with partial understanding. This needed to be dealt with before I leave for service so that I can be as effective as possible and not be fighting myself as much as I have had to lately.

Yesterday, God answered this prayer and finally brought me to a full understanding of what is going on.

First I will share with you what I had already known:

Every year around New Years Day, I begin asking The Lord to reveal a word to me for the year. He helps guide me throughout the year and direct my steps and for the last several years he has given me these words. Most of the time he answers by New Years. Sometimes he gives me an answer a bit in to the year. Last year, for 2017, my word was “breakthrough.” This proved to be a true word from the Lord as there were many areas of amazing breakthrough in my life. This year He has given me one that is more challenging. I prayed several times for God to confirm that this was his word for me because it was a word that I didn’t really want to have to deal with along with all of the other things happening in my life at the moment. The word he gave me, and confirmed time and again, was “Refine.”

Refine is a brutal word. It is right up there with pruning in the Christian walk. It is important but very difficult to go through another season of refinement. I will first talk a bit about the process and then go in to the importance of refinement as a Christian and a leader.


Often Refinement, when mentioned in the Bible, deals with the process of burning impurities out of precious metals such as gold or silver. The metal is melted down to a liquid state, which does two things: it burns out all impurities, therefore making the precious metal pure; and it makes the metal more easily mold-able. When the impurities are taken out, the metal can be poured in to a mold, or cooled and pounded by the master’s hand to create the desired shape. The absence of the impurities means the metal is softer and less brittle. It will not break as the tools are used to expertly craft it.

The Holy Spirit enters us and the fire of the Spirit burns out all that is not of God as we allow him to work in us.


We need to keep in mind that, as we pray and sing songs asking God to, “purify my heart, let me be as gold, and precious silver,” and the like, we are asking for exactly that and giving God permission (since he is a gentleman) to work in us and grow us and prune us. We must not allow ourselves to be surprised or respond indignantly, then, when the Holy Spirit leads us in to the depth we have been asking for and begins to pull up roots of past bitterness, deceit, unclean thoughts, addictions, and every other unclean thing that has found its way in to our hearts throughout the years. We often deal with these things and overcome them, but refinement banishes them from our spirit and uproots the weeds that do their best to grow back in to problems in our lives. Refinement creates an environment that is too on fire for these weeds to survive.

We must continue to dwell in that fire of the Holy Spirit so that the proverbial house Jesus speaks of, mentioned in Matthew 12 and Luke 11, that represents our heart, is not a cleaned but empty house to welcome back a past spiritual problem, but is occupied continuously by Christ and continues to be an environment detrimental to Satan and his minions.

The purpose of refinement and why God seemed to be sorting through the attitudes of my heart with such a fine toothed comb was a puzzle to  me. However, more troubling to me was the deeper realization that many of these things that had not been present in my life for over half of the time I lived by this point. Why were they showing up again, and with so much strength that some of them seemed difficult to overcome? The presence behind them seemed nearly as difficult to fight as it had been when I was a young teenager just learning how to fight. Why, now, was there such a prevailing strength in battles I had long thought had been won?

The answer to this, after much prayer, was revealed as I watched the Jesus Conference 2016 Panel discussion yesterday on the couch in my sister’s living room. I listened as Benny Hinn revealed an answer to a question about why some ministers of the gospel fall -even though they had operated under the anointing- that Oral Roberts had revealed to him in an interview several years prior. He said, (at 1:00:22)

“Let me tell you what I know about the anointing. The anointing, when God anoints you for service, that anointing magnifies everything in you- intensifies everything. Notice that when people are under that anointing for ministry you become very loud, you become very intense, it effects you emotionally… It intensifies everything in you; good and bad. If a man is living in sin, that anointing brings it to the surface. It kind of stirs it up.

That anointing stirs up the good and the bad in people. The reason they fall is that they do not understand… these people with those weaknesses… we all have weaknesses and if we don’t deal with those weaknesses, they will destroy us eventually. With preachers that don’t deal with these problems, under their anointing it stirs their problem up. The problem is they need to pray more after God uses them than before he uses them.”

This helped me to realize that, since God has given me an anointing for service in the kingdom, now that I am active in moving towards this service that he verified in me many times concluding in my realization this last October that this is the next step of what God was asking me to do; the good and the bad within me is magnified and I must allow the Holy Spirit to burn out the bad and give all of this to him in total surrender, or the things that I have struggled with in the past will come against me in ministry. These will not come against me in the fact that they are part of my history that might be revealed- I am unashamed of my past as Christ has deleted my shame and the blame and condemnation for my past bad choices- but that if I do not allow the Holy Spirit to purify and then renew my heart, I will be found wanting.


Praise The Lord Jesus Christ that he has given me sufficient grace to overcome my weaknesses. Praise Him that He cares enough to allow these things to be revealed in my soul so that they can be uprooted in preparation for service. Praise God that the Holy Spirit has been provided to set us on FIRE and mark us for salvation. I choose to surrender and get through this REFINEMENT, allow him to build me again through Holy Spirit RENEWAL, and be able to be an instrument of REVIVAL in such a time as this.






A Bride Presented Pure and Holy

I have been reading a lot in the ‘minor’ prophets of the old testament lately. As I sit here with a cat trying to lie down on my Bible and steal my breakfast simultaneously, I am studying the last couple of chapters of Malachi.

It amazes me how often these prophets speak of Jesus and the days that were, at that time, still to come. When I was young, I never noticed this, but as I have dug in to God more I can’t help but see these things. Jesus is so present in the Old Testament of the Bible. We cannot get a full picture of our Lord without studying both the old and new testament. Jesus, himself confirmed in Matthew 5:17 his standing with the law and the prophets:

“Do not think that I have come to abolish the Law or the Prophets; I have not come to abolish them but to fulfill them.” –Matthew 5:17 NIV

This tells us that the law is still important. Although we entered an age of grace through Jesus’ victory on the cross, it did not by any means abolish the law and its importance to the church.


Paul, as a man who was trained extensively in the law of Moses, speaks extensively about the Christian and our relationship to the law in Romans and many other areas of the Bible. Although I will not go in to all of it, feel free to check out Romans 6,7,and 8.

“What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?” –Romans 6:1-2 King James Version (KJV)

In Malachi today, I read the following:

“So I will come near to you for judgement. I will be quick to testify against sorcerers, adulterers and perjurers, against those who defraud laborers of their wages, who oppress the widows and the fatherless, and deprive aliens of justice, but do not fear me, says the the Lord Almighty.

“I the Lord do not change. So you, O descendants of Jacob are not destroyed. Ever since the time of your forefathers you have turned from my decree and have not kept them. Return to me, and I will return to you, says the Lord Almighty.” -Malachi 3:5-7a 

God doesn't change

These things are relevant even today. Jesus also said that he had not come to abolish the prophets in the verse mentioned previously (Matthew 5:17), and this is written in the prophets.

In Zechariah 3, the prophet is shown of things to come (according to verse 8), and the specific time is after the coming of God’s servant, the Branch. According to the prophecy in Ezekial 3:16-21 as well as Jeremiah 23:5-6, we are told that the branch is Christ.

“The days are coming,” declares the Lord,
    “when I will raise up for David[a] a righteous Branch,
a King who will reign wisely
    and do what is just and right in the land.
In his days Judah will be saved
    and Israel will live in safety.
This is the name by which he will be called:
    The Lord Our Righteous Savior.” -Jeremiah 23:5-6


Referring to this time of history and the coming of Christ, Zechariah writes:

“This is what the Lord Almighty says: If you will walk in my ways and keep my requirements, then you will govern my house and have charge of my courts, and I will give you a place among these standing here.” –Zechariah 3:7


Another clue that tells us this is talking about after the Christ comes and accomplishes the cross is in the rest of the chapter. Let me go through the parts for you:

“Then he showed me Joshua the high priest standing before the angel of the Lord, and Satan[a] standing at his right side to accuse him. The Lord said to Satan, “The Lord rebuke you, Satan! The Lord, who has chosen Jerusalem, rebuke you! Is not this man a burning stick snatched from the fire?”(also check Jude 1:23– save others by snatching them from the fire)

Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel.The angel said to those who were standing before him, “Take off his filthy clothes.” (dirty clothes and dirty rags symbolize being cleansed from sins, Isaiah 64:6) (John 1:29)

Then he said to Joshua, “See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put fine garments on you.” (so God cleansed the high priest (remember according to verse 8, this is a symbol of things to come) from his sins)

Then I said, “Put a clean turban on his head.” So they put a clean turban on his head and clothed him, while the angel of the Lord stood by. (turbans denote a person’s position, and the high priest’s position would have been one of honor and authority. Christ has placed a fresh authority on his head. Matthew 16:19)

The angel of the Lord gave this charge to Joshua: “This is what the Lord Almighty says: ‘If you will walk in obedience to me and keep my requirements, then you will govern my house and have charge of my courts, and I will give you a place among these standing here.

“‘Listen, High Priest Joshua, you and your associates seated before you, who are men symbolic of things to come: I am going to bring my servant, the Branch. ( See, the stone I have set in front of Joshua! There are seven eyes[b] on that one stone, and I will engrave an inscription on it,’ says the Lord Almighty, ‘and I will remove the sin of this land in a single day.  (John 1:29) (Zechariah 2:10-13) (Christ came and removed the sins of the world when he died on the cross as a sacrifice for sin once and for all: Hebrews 7:27)

10 “‘In that day each of you will invite your neighbor to sit under your vine and fig tree,’ declares the Lord Almighty.” (this is mentioned in Jeremiah 23:6, 1 Kings 4:25, and Micah 4:4 This denotes a time of safety and blessing as it was in the days of Solomon, according to the reference in 1 Kings 4:25)

“But you will have a son who will be a man of peace and rest, and I will give him rest from all his enemies on every side. His name will be Solomon, and I will grant Israel peace and quiet during his reign.” 1 Chronicles 22:9

“23 King Solomon was greater in riches and wisdom than all the other kings of the earth. 24 The whole world sought audience with Solomon to hear the wisdom God had put in his heart. 25 Year after year, everyone who came brought a gift—articles of silver and gold, robes, weapons and spices, and horses and mules.” 1 Kings 10:23-25

bride-sda church image

We cannot discount the importance of the old testament simply because Christ conquered hell. Even he, himself has instructed us that he has not come to abolish the law or the prophets. He came to give us grace so that, despite our failings, we will be able to strive forward and be righteous through him. He has made a way for us, but we should not use this as an excuse to sin, as Paul has so clearly stated.

Even in the old testament prophecies of Jesus’ coming, we are told to be righteous and seek holiness. Let us not forget that the Full Bible is the story of Christ. Let it do its full work in us so that we may become the full representation of Christ to the World, purified, renewed, and ready for our precious Savior and Messiah.

Shining the Light of Christ and Destroying the Works of Darkness

14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” -Matthew 5:14-16

We, as the church, cannot choose to operate less in the Spirit in order to attract those outside of the church. We cannot operate to give others comfort, but only to shine the light of Christ.
It is only thorough allowing the full light of Christ to shine through us that the darkness will be overtaken.

“19 Do not quench the Spirit; 20 do not despise prophetic [a]utterances. 21 But examine everything carefully; hold fast to that which is good; 22 abstain from every [b]form of evil.” 1 Thessalonians 5:19-22

Let us boldly operate as the Salt and the Light and rid ourselves of the godless practice of quieting the works of the spirit (which has become all too common in the church.) in order to make others more comfortable or gain members.
We cannot act un-biblically and claim to be doing the work of Christ. This becomes legalism: trying to do the work of God in our own way rather than according to the principles of Scripture. Shine on brothers and sisters, shine on in the darkness! Let your light so shine before men that others may see your good works and glorify the Father in heaven.
Let us urge each other forward to excellence and growth. Let us hold each other to accountability. Let us not fall in to the trap of witchcraft(which we recognize by assigning of interpretation of visions, dreams, prophecy, symbols, and numbers, by individuals rather than relying on the Spirit of God for interpretation.) in church which leads to legalism and lawlessness(which are two sides of the same coin), sensuality, and all kinds of lusting and sexual sin.
butterflies psychic witchcraft


We should always be seeking God’s voice, and always be in tune with the Spirit of God. Do not follow pre-formulated templates that place God’s voice in a box. Weigh EVERYTHING by the Word of God.

I urge you brothers and sisters, do not open this door! If it is open, repent and close it immediately! Witchcraft will lead you astray! Do not commit adultery against Christ by prostituting yourselves to other teachings. Christ has called us to be a pure bride, made Holy through his blood.

Missions Journal Day 1

Welcome to my life, or the newest chapter of my life, anyway.

I have waited my whole life to be a missionary. God called me when I was young, but only recently did he tell me it is now time. Journey along with me as I learn, travel, file, face challenges, and rejoice in victories.

I hope that this journal is able to help others with questions as I learn many answers myself.

Today, I introduce myself shortly and talk about God’s Provision according to the Bible, living in Holiness, and what Grace really is.

God bless!!!


Me Too

A beautifully written and elequent article by a dear friend. #metoo

Multiply this Hallelujah Song

I’ve seen the hashtag all over social media the last few days. #metoo. I’ve heard about it on the news, and I’ve read opinion articles-both fair and unfair towards individuals on either side of the discussion. This current discussion- because its certainly not a new one by any stretch of the imagination- has been spurred into motion by the stories coming forth from Hollywood by ladies harassed and assaulted by producer Harvey Weinstein after a tape recording was discovered and released of a berating discussion in which the female could clearly be heard protesting his advances repeatedly.

Multiple times I already knew of the stories my friends told, because that’s what women ought to do- be a force of support. Other times I’ve had no idea. It brought to mind all the stories I’d been given the intimate privilege to listen to and the survival and strength story tellers had…

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